Question: Leaving an abusive relationship how long does sadness and grief last afterwards?

For 4 years I have been in an abusive relationship. It startled with only name calling like *****, stupid , loser , useless, idiot etc. then esacalated to telling me to kill myself and even once told me to send a video of me doing so. He would also say it’s just his anger that says it and he doesn’t mean it I just make him so mad and only I can make him so mad. Then esacated to physical violence. He has slapped me while I was driving kicked me in my legs punched me in my arms and stomach bitten me, pressured me into sex ,hit me with his belt thrown a chair at me. He claims throwing it at me was an accident but after He threw he told me to shut up when I started crying. Immediately afterwards he would be really affectionate and apologize which is what has led me to such confusion. He jokes about killing me and if I say anything that bothers him he will threaten to hurt me. He almost brags about the fact that he hurts me. I want to get out but when I read online about it everyone says it’s even harder to leave and can lead do depression and grief. I am working on getting out I just want to know how long feelings of sadness last acgerward and how long it takes to get over it ?

Dramatis Personae of Beauty and Sadness

Beauty and Sadness (美しさと哀しみと Utsukushisa to kanashimi to) clearly isn’t an easy read. I had started it some 5 years ago, read till the middle and abandonned it. Now, I picked it up again and found a reading mark at the start of chapter 7 – Summer Thinness (Or, as I read it in German: Sommermagerkeit).

I thought I remembered the story somewhat well enough to resume where I left it off, but just at the middle of the page I realized: Who were all these people again?!

Dramatis Personae of Beauty and Sadness

Beauty and Sadness (美しさと哀しみと Utsukushisa to kanashimi to) clearly isn’t an easy read. I had started it some 5 years ago, read till the middle and abandonned it. Now, I picked it up again and found a reading mark at the start of chapter 7 – Summer Thinness (Or, as I read it in German: Sommermagerkeit).

I thought I remembered the story somewhat well enough to resume where I left it off, but just at the middle of the page I realized: Who were all these people again?!